Have you ever thought what it means to try and control something you really have no control over. I'm going in to the film industry. An industry that is driven by power, money, reputation, and, more importantly, fear. Why is it more important that I mention fear? It's a weird one to mention and make a point of, but the reason why I mention that is because it stems from power, wealth, and reputation. In Hollywood, the goal is to get to the top. The top of the studio. The top of the A-list. The top of the Guild's. But what happens when you get to the top? You are constantly looking over your shoulder worried about if and when someone will de-throne you. "You're only as good as your last movie." That's how Hollywood lives.
So what would happen if people where to acknowledge the fact that they can't control their power, their wealth, their reputation, and be ok with that? When you acknowledge that you don't have control over these things, I've realized, fear doesn't dictate what you do anymore.
I don't typically try to control my wealth and power because, frankly, I have none. And I'm okay with that. But I will tell I struggle with trying to control what people think of me. How crazy is that? I can't control the thoughts that run through people's heads in regards to me. That's like saying I can fly whenever I want. It's not true and it's not possible. When I think of people in the film industry who are trying to do everything they can to control their power, wealth and reputation, I think of my experience with trying to control what people think about me and I laugh.
When you try to control something you honestly can't control, you create stress in your life. What happens if I make a wrong move? What happens if I make a bad investment? What happens if I say something that gets taken out of context and twisted? You start living by fear.
When I finally, truly realized that I didn't have control, I was able to actually be myself. And trust me, it's an everyday struggle to give up control but not feeling the pressure to make people think one way or another about me is liberating. Not worrying about power, not worrying about wealth, not worrying about reputation, allows you to live as a human-being and not as a god. You aren't God, so stop trying to control the uncontrollable and instead just be a person. An imperfect human-being. Cause that's how we are supposed to live.
